I want what I want, and I want it RIGHT NOW!

But don't we all?  Isn't that what gets us into trouble more often than not?

Last night I visited my parents and found myself getting in a funky mood.  Why?  Because I wanted to eat.  No, I was not hungry; I purposely ate before I went there.  I just wanted to eat.  I always want to eat when I am there. 

I made myself leave early to escape the desire to eat and as I reflected on my ride home I realized that I have to retrain my mind that I "need" to eat while I am there.  That will have to start with me not heading to the dining room table as soon as I walk in the door.  No matter if I plan to eat or not, that seems to be the gathering place to sit and chat as a family.  And of course sitting at a table, I naturally want to eat.  So today I will return, and I will sit in the living room.  Baby steps.

When I got home I was deep in a funk, so I sent myself to bed.  This was my method of escaping the desire to eat that was still present and so that I would not "cheat" and give in to the peppermints.  Yes, I still want those damn peppermints!  But the problem with peppermints is that they multiply - one turns into three, and three turns into eight, and before I know it, I've eaten more than I choose to count.

The more and more I think about "cheating" (or giving in) the more I realize that I am only cheating myself.  Didn't I promise that I would be "Giving It My All?"  That is not to say that I will never have another peppermint, or another cake, or any more pretzels, or whatever the snack I desire.  What is does say is that I am still learning and growing and I need to set and stick to limits.